(Un)Scheduled maintenance…

The hangover from the big one year of sobriety has subsided. I started writing this on Sunday, my 14 month anniversary, and the only way I knew that was I was switching stuff to my new phone and my little day counter app showed my time “in”. No more colorful chips and I promised to…

Stay Sturdy

Hi everyone, anyone still out there? It has been quite some time since I’ve written anything and I actually have reasons, not excuses! Lots of effort was required to get up to and through my one year anniversary. The pressure we place on ourselves is far more intense than anything an outsider could ever aspire…

A low down shakin’ chill…

Son House wrote a song called “Walkin Blues” and said “The blues ain’t nothin’ but a low down shakin’ chill”. Ever been so sick that you’ve got every blanket in the house piled on top of yourself (plus that little blue kitchen towel with a sailboat embroidered on it because your mom sent it to…

Traction is precious 

Happy new year! 2017 is upon us and I think it has plenty of good things in store! Apparently dumping snow on a daily basis was top priority and met with a great deal of continuing success… First post of the new year. What a year 2016 was. One for the ages, without question. Finally…

Seek the message, not the mess

It’s Christmas morning at the Cottage of Solitude. This is the first Christmas in my life that I woke up to a completely empty house. No significant other, no family, and for the first time since she was born, no Sam. She is safe and sound and happy with her mom and I’m guessing still…

When heroes fall…

If you are looking for the Christmas special that leaves you feeling like a Norman Rockwell painting, you may want to wait for next week’s episode. I was told that one has to write the ugly to make room for the beautiful so I’m going to make that room. Growing up, I was fortunate enough…

What power you have…

I just figured out why writing a book takes so long. It’s actually hard work and takes a ton of time. Unless that’s all one does for a living, other stuff gets in the way. Why didn’t someone tell me this?!?! Enough whining. Time to get to work on this post. This is the first…

But am I a pretty rock???

Welcome back! Or welcome in general! This episode is going to be a challenge to write but hopefully not a challenge to read. A friend asked me to write a blog about “acceptance”. Acceptance is something we work on a bunch in the program. It’s key to our survival. It’s important enough to be a…

Don’t throw away your “mow-mow”

The picture that headlines this post might spark memories in parents more than non-parents but that little buggy was the first image that came to mind when I started so let’s see if I can explain. Eight months ago I decided to give up. No more booze. Ever again. Back in that cold, dark, shitty…

Thirsty Days

“On thirsty days just like these, you only get what you can squeeze.” – Guy Forsyth in the song – “Mechanic” “Don’t force it Derek, just get a bigger hammer.” That’s my Dad. Sage advice when applied properly. My last two blog posts had two weeks between them. Not because I didn’t have anything to say…

My First Radio Interview

(fake transcript from a fake interview by a fake DJ on a fake radio station) DJ Chow: And we’re back! Sharing the studio today with a newcomer to the area, Sober Derek! Welcome to the WACK “Off Color Interview Hour”! Me: Well thanks Chow, it’s an honor to be… DJ: That’s terrific! So how are…

How Do I Turn This Damn Thing Off???

Something pretty cool happened Saturday morning at AA. I learned something! I learned that that the learning doesn’t ever stop if you don’t want it to. So what brilliant gem did I glean from this meeting that I had to share??? It was a one-two punch of “get your shit together Chowen” that turns out…